Wednesday, March 31, 2004

WELCOMED AND OVERWHELMED


Psalm 63:2-3

I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.


It's been hectic...it's been good.

I'm overwhelmed.

The Waco job, which was going to start Monday, was fast tracked this afternoon. I start tomorrow.
I was sort of hoping to have the weekend to adjust my sleep schedule a little, but daylight saving time hits Sunday anyway and that always messes up my internal clock...might as well dive right in.

I really have been in a daze for a week as these new opportunities have literally been tossed into my lap. I know it's taken some stress off Amy and her worries about money. That may be the best medicine she's gotten in some time. Despite a lingering infection and the added wearisome need for I.V. antibiotics, she had two good days in a row this week, the most she's had since January. I can't help but believe knowing our cash flow is going to increase played a role in that.

I also have to admit the job stuff has been an ego boost of sorts too. I really haven't competed for a job - with the exception of a brief fling with the concept of abandoning our sanity and running away to a somewhat ill defined low paying position at a Christian college in Ohio last year- in 20 years. A little validation apparently goes a long way.

The new opportunities, the money, the small signs of health improvements, and the ego boost are all good things...but that's not what has overwhelmed me.

I was struck by it this afternoon while walking - a heavy sense of the presence of prayer. I know that friends, family, and complete strangers have been praying for us for some time, but in these past two days I have literally felt it: the energy of hope.

I am convinced our fortunes are turning, but no matter what lies ahead, for today at least the burdens seem lighter.

It's been invigorating.

It's been humbling.

I'm thankful.

I'm blessed.

I'm overwhelmed.